I recently attended the Goddess Embodiment Retreat with Mary Mikhael Angelique in Bali. Since returning, I’ve been trying to come up with the “perfect” testimonial that is heartfelt and truly captures the experience. However, after much introspection and meditation, I realized that if I simply speak from my heart and allow my higher self to guide me, that it will be perfect. So here it goes…
The retreat found me. I was not invited to attend and I did not know anyone that was already going. But I was meant to be there.
You see, I am just a girl from California who has been walking this earth solo in search for truth and higher consciousness. For understanding. For my purpose. My mission. My tribe. For deeper connection. For self-love. For soul relationships. For unconditional love….
Very few people really “know” me. After experiencing a kundalini awakening that was triggered by encountering my twin, I started to search for answers to what was happening to me. I thought I was going crazy. I didn’t know anyone else that had experienced what I was experiencing. I felt alone.
Through that search, my higher guides brought the One Love Humanity website to the top of my browser. There is a lot of information out there in the web on these topics, but One Love’s content really resonated with me. I saw that they offered retreats, but unfortunately they had already passed. I was bummed to have missed out on the opportunity. So I e-mailed them to inquire about possible future events.
Then Mary contacted me.
As soon as we spoke I burst into tears. I could feel her authenticity and love, her integrity. Not only did she make time for me, but SHE WAS LIKE ME. She validated me. She made me feel safe. I was not crazy. I was not alone…
Mary recommended the Goddess Embodiment Retreat. I trusted her, so I signed up. It would be a big trip for me to travel to Bali from America and a little scary going alone. But perhaps I’d find the answers to the questions I was seeking. I was excited to go.
And then the retreat started. As soon as I signed up. But it was not all unicorns and rainbows. In fact, the wheels started falling off my bus. After 16 years in business with 30% growth year over year, within months of signing up for the retreat I was looking at a real prospect of losing a lot that I had invested over the years. The more I tried to control the situation, the more I was faced with closed doors…
For the first time in my life, with my credit cards maxed out and struggling to cover payroll, I reached out to One Love Humanity for a refund for the retreat. It seemed selfish and irresponsible to to spend the time and $ on a myself when I was facing real challenges at home and with my business. One Love’s team was terrific about understanding my situation.
They *REFUSED *my request for a refund!
WTF?! I was pissed. How could they be so thoughtless and not help a girl out who was clearly in a difficult situation? Where’s the love?
Thank God for NO.
Fine! I decided. If I paid for the trip, then I was going! But I didn’t want to go with a sour heart. So I started to soften. I realized that this was the Universe’s way of telling me that I needed to go… By this time (despite my inner child), I was learning to listen to my guides. So,
I LET GO OF CONTROL.
AND, the energy started to shift.
As I started to prepare for the trip, I started to focus on me. I started to read, study, meditate, and prepare my mind and heart for the journey. I started to feel my power rise. Although It seemed like the worst timing to be leaving the country with the financial struggles my company faced,
THE TIMING WAS PERFECT.
I was a little nervous when I first arrived to the retreat. I was the only (the FIRST) American to attend. I didn’t know anyone. But it became apparent that I was exactly where I was supposed to be as soon as I entered the temple. I was the first to enter.
As I turned the corner, I was met by Adriana Basile, who saged me. When she saw me, she started to cry. She recognized me. It was mutual. Not only had we known each other from past lives, but we remembered that we were the best of friends! It was so great to see each other again!
Then, the beautiful Ionie Valdez washed my feet. What a gentle and beautiful soul. As I entered the temple doors, Mary was waiting and holding space for us all; she recognized me too!
I FELT AT HOME.
I have done this before. The next eight days were filled with amazing interactions with 16 gorgeous women sharing, listening, supporting, holding, crying, purging, resisting, and growing TOGETHER.
We are ONE.
We are LOVE.
We are HUMANITY.
I have many beautiful stories about each and every one of these women. I wish I could share them all. From the past-life recognition, to the shared vision, it was amazing to be around other women that speak my language, who eat a vegan diet like me, and who truly understand me. For once in my life, I feel that I found my friends…
I could be ME Apologetically.
I did not find the answers to what I was seeking in Bali, but I found them from looking deep within me. I only needed to travel to Bali to find me. But what I really gained from the retreat was:
I REMEMBERED who I am.
I took back my POWER.
I found my SOUL TRIBE.
I LET GO of things that no longer serve me.
I acknowledged my PURPOSE.
I re-connected with my inner GODDESS.
I am READY to to fulfill my mission.
I want to thank Mary Mikhael Angelique and Jonathan David for the work that you do. Thank you for refusing my request for a refund. Thank you for welcoming me. I know that I had been running (if only to penetrate a new continent), but I’ve returned home and I’m ready to help you.
I know my purpose is to disrupt social construct and my mission is to raise the consciousness of the planet. I am ready to help bring One Love Consciousness to the United States (Jessica Archdall)!
Let’s do it!
All of me